II. What is Neurotic Nihilism?

Neurotic Nihilism is a way to point out how pointless even pointlessness is; the differing thresholds to sanity as well as reactive tendencies as a result. The case study obviously being first and foremost myself. Those supposed pitfalls are my own in theory, historical and active practice. 

Neurotic Nihilism is my microcosm in the broader theme of Mundane Extremes. In the pointlessness of pointless, the whole point is made within that. Never is it a sole instance, and it’s not typically a tango, moreso mental massacre. As a determining momentary factor, in of itself Neurotic Nihilism is antithetical to itself given its prescribed goal is existential. 

The meaning comes from there being no innate meaning, why or how and dealing with that fact accordingly. 

Neurotic Nihilism is all the mishaps, misinterpretations, successes and daily doings against entropy. The model is admittedly malleable as such. Epitomizing a constant system of skepticism; and from there skepticism to that skepticism. Resultingly it does run into an all too common pitfall, all fluid thought eroding any possible plateau, leveling it into depths of reductive hypotheticals in record time. 

It seems, given my description, more grandiose than it is. It’s nothing. Nothing new, or out there. Maybe outtakes are, but it’s Mundane Extremes: my outtakes and reactions are what makes my experiment interesting.

Fellow Traveller is a phrase often used to denote a person who surfs ideas, trying to understand and connect them. Make it all make sense. In the negative, painful polar extreme of Neurotic Nihilism is this paired with the wired skepticism. If left unbalanced and unchecked it can devolve into a form of personal psychic vampirism.

The brain can only process and intake so much stimulation without outlet or a break; where it becomes personal vampirism— psychic auto-cannibalism— is it feeds on itself creating a reductive loop. It can be broken, hence the whole point of the pointlessness.

Neurotic Nihilism is the concept of perception becoming conception. Working with it rather than against its weight is the pointless point. Ideas are intaken, processed and applied for better or worse. It’s a a test. But like it says in Lolita, this isn’t a game. Vampirically however, this is only a game.

Long story short, Neurotic Nihilism is its own proponent and antidote.