Neurotic Nihilism: a zine

 

Overrated Instinct

 Sex is an overrated and unnecessary function of the human species. While it can be enjoyable, too much emphasis is put onto it. 

Aside from procreation and manipulation, there really is no use to the action. If it’s recreational, the line between leisure and compulsory activity is ultimately obliterated; fueling manipulation but offering little more than another addictive hobby. Sure, this is bastardizing and can be argued against but the evidence to support this opinion (as it’s really just that) is sort of apparent. If human sexuality wasn’t such a convoluted mess, things would be better off: population wouldn’t be a worry, manipulation and propaganda wouldn’t be as effective, more time would be spent on bettering more productive things, less emotionally taxing things at the end of the day. 

Sex is temporary, waking up to a new song from your favorite band is a jouir unrivaled by sex, just as an example. 

But, with all that, how does the human species get along without it? How does any? Well, we do now have the means of technical asexual reproduction… but to what end?

Suicidal Sexuality

Suicide as subconscious natural selection, like how homosexuality could be explained biologically. Unlike other species containing homosexuality in comparison however contain self-destructive tendencies but are scarcely ‘suicidal’ as our mirror neurons understand it. In that, homosexuality can be viewed as an instinctively suicidal sexuality. 

Ironic Intuition

Introspection is an invisible ignorance,

but only in its removal of innocence. 

It’s endless intuitive, instinctive investigation—

Wisdom isn’t gained from [pure] thought. 

Initially invigorating intent

As if it’s the mind of an Ent 

Ironclad inaction or insane invention

Endless oblivion inevitably impends…

Favorite Songs August 2025

Hi, It’s Me by Ashnikko

4U by goneMUNE

Black Celebration-live at Rose Bowl Pasadena by Depeche Mode

Fuck You And All Your Friends by Falling In Reverse 

First Class Loser by Dropkick Murphy

Pop The Smoke by Skold

GLITCH by goneMUNE

Letter bomb by Green Day

Punk Rock Song by Bad Religion

Sam, Son of Man by Marilyn Manson & the Spooky Kids

Animal I Have Become by Three Days Grace 

The Nobodies by Marilyn Manson

Die Young by Kesha

Kill All Your Friends by My Chemical Romance 

Ordinary Man by Ozzy Osbourne, Elton John

Irresponsible Hate Anthem-live version by Marilyn Manson

Rock Is Dead-Live Album by Marilyn Manson

Boy Division by My Chemical Romance 

Ich Hasse Kinder by Till Lindemann

Brittle Bones Nicky by Rare Americans

Symphony No. 9 in D Minor, Op. 125 “Choral”: II. Molto vivace by Ludwig van Beethoven 

All My Women by Falling In Reverse, HARDY

X-Kid by Green Day

RAT WARS by HEALTH

Bad Guy by Falling In Reverse, Saraya

Cum on Feel The Noize by Quiet Riot

Pay For It by Mindless Self Indulgence

Caramelldansen by Caramella Girls

Weighted by Frank Iero

Shot In The Dark by Ozzy Osbourne 

The Ride by Blood Axis

Trigger Warning by Falling In Reverse

Livin’ On A Prayer by Bon Jovi

Crush by Ethel Cain

Bomb This Track by Mindless Self Indulgence 

Oh Yeah! by Green Day

ASHAMED by HEALTH

Nth Degree by Morningwood

The Last Stand by Sabaton

How Do You Do by Jaegershu 

Dance, Dance by Fall Out Boy 

Peace & Love Inc. by Information Society 

Films by Gary Numan

Luv Luv Luv by Pansy Division

film fun

 ‘The Light In The Dark’ is a 1922 film from William Dudley Pelley best enjoyed while Boyd Rice’s quite aligning’Back To Mono’ drones through it. 

This is also quite elevated through psychoactively induced altered states of consciousness. 

Flowers in dead teeth

 I wrote this a good bit ago, but I find it interesting how it lines up with events of this year… I was literally told “buy them flowers” then, in the words of POD, ‘one bang, blood-rush to the head…’

Flowers are the best instance of how one can be full of life and beauty today then dead and decaying tomorrow. With a flower there is still some false, faded grey beauty to it. Rigor mortis in humans is only pretty so often. In a human carcass, beauty is dependent on care and timing. 

Of course, this is a materialistic way of fetishizing the dead, as it is a materialistic world. Romanticism has seen a decline and death is definitely part of Romanticism. A revival of Romanticism could place on death the ire of having lived a life to its fullest and immortal spirit… Thus, post-Mortem living should be an afterthought, seeing as it’s more sensible to live in the fate one can be sure of. Focusing on what can be lived, not any “should have”-s.

Satanism: A Sinple Summary

Bruce Lee once said to be fluid like water.

That’s Satanism  

Satanism is a tool and a Satanist cannot be backed into a wall as a result of the fluid application of the tool… when it’s behooving.

As times change, no human ideals stand sure. The Satanists, and I mean true Satanists, not just phase oners or people who try using it for making up a lack of their own real identity, are those iconoclasts who question all things and are unable to be cornered— metaphorically and literally.

Satanism is a living thought; a conversation; an action. It should be explored and tested, used to one’s advantage as after all, if you can’t use Satanism then what’s the use of being a Satanist? This is why pretentiousness and the forgetting of past orthodoxies are frowned upon, they are counterproductive to a Satanist, who, understands they live in reality and understands that Satanism promotes ‘‘thought and action’ as opposed to sitting back and expecting things to be spoonfed to them; Satanism promotes the uncomfortable (third-side) alternatives— taboo, secret knowledge (usually ending up about yourself more than anythin) you won’t find without playing with madness via study and natural experience.

Satanism is life in its most absolute form. It is survival, love, hate, passion; carnality— the flesh prevails. The word Satan in specific means a human adversary. Humans are fleshy and carnal animals, like any other. Naturally, given that and the definition of the word Satan being a human adversary, ‘Satanist’ would mean one that is adversarial to that which would deny the innate carnal and animalistic instincts humans have.

So, Satan coming from the Hebrew word for adversary, it’s not any one specific character. Satanism by its codification and definition of the word Satan stems from the idea of that adversary. Satanism is adversarial in that it promotes the life enriching things that have traditionally been given the devil’s name by both much of society and religious: institutions: greed, lust, nonconformity, rational-self-interest, lex talionis, skeptical inquiry…

Many who claim to be Satanists now have no real connection to it. Satanism is not for collective political battles; it is not for groupthink. If you ‘joined’ something in the name of Satanism, chances are, you’ve been conned.

The harsh truth is, Satanism is a harsh truth. It’s a smash in the face to rigidly sterile and stagnating ideals.

In a way Satanism is evolution, mainly in the mind but possibly on some genetic level.

Satanism is balance: Solve Et Coagula; love and hate; indulgence and abstinence. Baphomet is the image used to represent this most commonly, like water needs balance so it doesn’t disperse and crash down, Satanism is simultaneously the balance and the crash.

Despite it being an individualistic idea, Satanism is an open conversatio. How one can best practically apply the concept to their advantag, their surviva. Satanism understands, as stated before, that as time and environment changes no human ideals stand sure. While man-made, Satanism is an (anti-)ideology of reality, capable of use under most any environment or situation.

Malleability is individual.

Power doesn't attract the corruptable, they become the jesters

Torture: Synonym of Sadism, Justice and Revenge

Torture is adored by most people on some level. That is to say, everyone has a secret sadism to them. Justice is often (if not always, I might cynically interject) a synonym for sadism. Most people probably wouldn’t intentionally go out of their way to maim another person, at least not typically. The majority of people think in Karmic aphorisms of persons inevitably ‘getting what they deserve’ on some level for some transgression, personal or impersonal. People of faith may be nonchalant, but you’ll go to hell. You get cut off in traffic: you hope they get pulled over; in an accident not involving you… It’s largely premeditated ‘what-if’ scenarios in one’s head. 

Torture is a Fetish, not necessarily explicit in its underlying sexuality but just as idealistically arousing regardless of scenarios. However… it’s not torture if it’s enjoyed, it’s kink.