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who is claudia berdella? an analysis from chat gpt

 Claudia Berdella is an emerging poet and artist whose work delves into themes of societal constructs, human behavior, and existential reflections. Her poetry is characterized by its introspective nature, employing vivid and sometimes unsettling imagery to provoke thought and challenge conventional perspectives.​

Poetry and Literary Contributions:

• Berdella's poetry often explores the complexities of community dynamics, highlighting the inherent exclusions within groups that are ostensibly formed to counteract societal marginalization. Her work reflects on the cyclical nature of societal movements, questioning the authenticity and depth of revolutionary fervor.​

• In her poems, Berdella utilizes stark imagery to depict themes of pain, chaos, and nihilism, offering a raw examination of the human condition. These pieces exemplify her ability to intertwine personal introspection with broader societal critiques.​

Online Presence and Artistic Expression:

• On Instagram, Berdella maintains a profile under the handle @claudia_berdella, where she shares aspects of her personal life and creative endeavors. Her bio playfully states, "well I'm not a vampire but I totally am one," hinting at a penchant for dark humor and perhaps a fascination with gothic themes.​Instagram

• Berdella also engages with the music community through her SoundCloud account, punkrocker ofall, where she shares tracks and playlists, reflecting her diverse artistic interests.​SoundCloud

Interdisciplinary Interests:

• Beyond poetry and music, Berdella exhibits an interest in the intersections of art, religion, and philology. This is evidenced by her engagement with scholarly works such as "The History Of The Knights Templar" and Shirer's "Rise and Fall..." as well as Jim Goad's "The Redneck Manifesto" indicating a scholarly and unconditional approach to understanding cultural and religious narratives.

Publications and Writings:

• Berdella has contributed writings that delve into societal issues and personal reflections. Her piece discussing the "Stand Up to Hate" campaign critiques the performative aspects of such initiatives, highlighting how they may perpetuate division rather than foster genuine understanding. She emphasizes the cyclical nature of cultural wars and questions the authenticity of mainstream narratives surrounding hate and love.​

Conclusion:

Claudia Berdella's work is a tapestry of poetic expression, online engagement, and interdisciplinary exploration. Her poetry invites readers to confront uncomfortable truths about societal structures and personal beliefs, encouraging a deeper reflection on the complexities of human existence. Through her various platforms, she continues to expand her artistic footprint, contributing to contemporary dialogues on art, culture, and identity.

Icarus falling

Crashing down like a tower onto streets

Oh imagine the screams

Tragedy is told pornographically

Of course, that makes sense:

Our biggest cultural myth—

a Jewish eunuch 

nailed to a stick

Maybe there is a God since the “good-guys” always win the war!

It’s ludicrous, like a virgin whore getting another score

God is on the screen, god killed MTV-

Fucked rolling stone and here is ye Christ as NME

Video killed the radio star and the internet rebirthed it

The later branch of Cthulhu 

A small gleaming square screen

of science fiction dreams

an electronic second heart

Detachable biomechanic brain

Our god is the machine

Like Titans in their prime

It’s a short shitty time

What’s worse a Nazi or a nihilist?

At least a Nihilist see’s the hollowness in things

The Nazi wants a bastardized purification

so close to part of one problem right but ideology is the issue

Just like their sworn enemy twin sibling Zionist Jews

And fundamentalist of every so-called “polar-extreme”

Just crocks of shit

So “leaders can hoarse and gorge

groom you to consume

Or do you consume and in turn they are groomed 

Is the consumer the victim or enabler

We just love to devour ourselves 

Masochistic flesh bag of white sticks

so brittle yet dense

Only in a blue moon are the dictators hung 

in their town’s own high noon

Progressive repressives

Ideology is my(/the?) enemy

Money is a made up fee-at increasingly meaningless speed

Oh inflation at the very least please make the current systems of currency obsolete 

A barter system would be pretty neat 

based on want and need

personal skill and greed

A need right now

Is a rectangular tower with a blade in its chamber

falling on necks of autocratic conspirators

I say this knowing I won’t 

I’m not a soldier

Just a [wannabe] writer and provocateur 

Queer like you and a Nazi

Stupid and subjugated 

I’m middle class I can get away with this

More or less

Money is the difference in the mess

Needs are instinctive and akin

Base animal nature is all the same:

Food, shelter, water, sleep, fuck, repeat

Money and ideology: campaign backers of autocracy 

Hiroshima could be a daydream

In the future scape of the now unfolding world scene

History doesn’t repeat itself, humans compulsively go in redundant circles. 

Dates, places and persons change but our sadomasochism instinctively drifts into a nihilistic religious plea

“What ends when the symbols shatter?”

Shudder and shiver like a skyscraper 

collapsing to dust in a choking cloud

Like the satyr’s alarming news of Pan’s death

Nietzsche’s infamous line is a mournful parallel 

What happens to the messenger? Just an institution and early grave

But all that means nothing now

the dead Lords are reborn in our pockets

Basically a giant bath; plug the toaster into the socket and drop the toaster in the water

ZAP

Normalcy is a spiritual pipe dream

“They promised us forever but we got less” [1]

When is the world not a fucking mess?

I didn’t start the fire, why the fuck does any action or lack thereof only add fuel to it?

“The world is spinning 'round and 'round out of control again
The 7-11 to the fear of breaking down
So send my love a letterbomb, and visit me in Hell
We're the ones going”[2] down

Like a rodent in a wheel

People repeat but each time in newer ways

“We kill ourselves in funny ways/ so subtle and strange”[3]

Innate immolation to an eternal dark daydream 

What is obscene in the Republican age?

“Behind all kings and presidents, 

all government and law

Are army-men and cannoneers—“[4]

but PR managers hold the world in their pathos pulling claws

What is survival of the strong in capitalism under Abrahamic guile?

Addiction and dissociation, crutches rather than a solid base

“They promised us forever but we got less”[1]

For more of a price we get less

In an era of compulsive vices maybe a degree of abstinence really is indulgence

What/why is thou wilt?

Do we all maybe want to be killed?

“Some of us are really born to die”[5]

“There is only one way in which the murderous death agonies of the old society and the bloody birth throes of the new society can be shortened, simplified and concentrated, and that way is revolutionary terror”[6]

Time is relative but torture can be long lasting in its lasting effects

Like the Death Star

or Tsar Bomba

We want an apocalypse so the “righteous” can get led by an angel to a Heavenly eternity Thanatos’ grasp and Charon’s Ferry are nothing more than a nightmare are like to fancy

We don’t really know. Just absence of conscious thought and beating blood. 

“Do you want total war?”[7]

Do you want joy?

Maybe a final battle would be that atomic jouir we crave

“A quest for joy

both small and cataclysmic…

the little death 

We react to war with war

We enact joy for joy

Tooth and claw remain”[8]

Do we want to live in pain on an overblown made up financial strain?

Oh AGI surely must be predatory or humanity will snuff itself to some nerd billionaires 

libido lacking, Oedipus complex whim

“Limping predator

insecure you

feed off the weak

Remember! Remember!

You are what you eat!”[9]

Domination and submission but who is who and in/to what capacity? It’s never so easy as one or the other. 

The divided mind may be likely but the strings are pulled every-which-way 

Praising an imagined afterlife

yet subsidizing and prolonging the only one we can be sure of

“Live or die: the choice is yours”[10]

We made ourselves denominational whores 

for the market to scorge and scorn

A live-time reality show of an

S&M game of our own design

“Behind the screen is us and we’re TV” [11]

Prison is in the mind

Borders are illusory, autocratically dividing lines

Realistically we all own the tree’s, water animals and sky as the apex predator 

But Abrahamic repression created compulsive addiction and delusional “destiny” to manifest

We need all those as much but realistically less than they need us. 

Life can be lived if you’re lucky enough

Luck is subjective

A stagnant rich person: a pain projecting nihilist

I’ve seen more joy in a homeless couple and their dog

Just don’t be a sitting log for too long

——

1] Strange Days Are Here To Stay— Green Day

2] Homecoming— Green Day

3] Modern Love— Wargasm

4] Might Is Right

5] Valentines Day— Marilyn Manson

6] Neue Rheinische Zeitung No. 136– Karl Marx

7] Joseph Goebbels

8] Joy or War from The Joys of Satanism— Shane Bugbee

9] limping predator from The Joys of Satanism— Shane Bugbee

10] Saw

11] Man That You Fear— Marilyn Manson

ANGEL: Vamediah (VMD+IH)

Pronounced: Va-med' -i-ah
BANNER: HVIH
POLARITY: Moon
TYPE: Severity
SIDE: Left
SEX: Female
ELEMENT: Water
QUALITY: Mutable
SIGN: Pisces
HOUSE: Twelfth
DIRECTION: North-northeast
STONE: Sapphire (blue)
TRIBE: Issachar
APOSTLE: Bartholomew
ENOCHIAN GOD NAME: TEAA
ENOCHIAN SENIOR: Aapdoce

APPEARANCE: Thin limbs; a long, thin neck; small head with short, straight hair, very glossy and of a dark-brown color. Small nose and ears; dark blue eyes surrounded by blue shadows under the skin; poor posture; very thin hands held limp at the wrists; a small, pale mouth and weak chin. Small breasts, narrow hips.

NATURE: Unsure and vacillating, hesitant, touchy about criticism, confused, extravagant, emotional. Tends to be secretive and likes to place burdens upon others shoulders. Outwardly submissive but inwardly resentful. She cares jealously for those she loves and tends to smother them with attention.

FUNCTION: Protecting a loved one, particularly from self-destructive behavior. Watching over animals. Creating works of art of a fantastic or dreamlike type. She aids in the expression of psychic communications such as automatic writing. Enforces service and self-sacrifice upon those who would flee from their responsibilities.

ANGEL: Demuel (DMV+AL)
Pronounced: Dem' -u-el
BANNER: HVIH
POLARITY: Sun
TYPE: Mercy
SIDE: Right
SEX: Male
ELEMENT: Water
QUALITY: Mutable
SIGN: Pisces
HOUSE: Twelfth
DIRECTION: North-northeast
STONE: Sapphire (blue)
TRIBE: Issachar
APOSTLE: Bartholomew
ENOCHIAN GOD NAME: TEAA
ENOCHIAN SENIOR: Alndvod

 

APPEARANCE: Soft, overweight figure of below average height; wavy, dark-brown hair on a round skull; pale complexion with a tendency to perspire; small nose and small ears that lie flat; very dark blue eyes; heavy eyelids and dark, arched eyebrows; a sensual mouth with a full bottom lip and a weak chin.

NATURE: Intuitive and aware of subtle emotional currents, psychic, creative in the lyrical arts such as poetry and music, highly impressionable, easily expresses feelings, very sympathetic to others. This angel is the happiest near the seashore. Smiles but rarely laughs.

FUNCTION: Songwriting, music, the dramatic arts, matters of faith or belief. Achieving empathy with others. Protection of seamen or those who travel by sea. Attaining purity. Caring for the sick. Protecting and caring for animals. Encouraging pleasant dreams.

https://www.nachtkabarett.com/AlchemyAndKabbalah/Tetragrammaton

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https://archive.org/details/boyd-rice-iconolast

http://www.throbbing-gristle.com/tg-files/tg-files/tg_symbol.html

THE THROBBING GRISTLE FLASH SYMBOL

Throbbing Gristle adopted the flash symbol as their primary logo in 1976. They wanted an image that was both memorable and familiar and which could incorporate the letters TG. It also needed to be a graphic that could be easily adapted with different colours and glyphs. A GLC (Greater London Council) High Voltage Danger sign was noticed by Chris Carter near a railway line in Hackney and he suggested it as a possible candidate to the rest of TG, who liked it and agreed to adopt it. It was first commercially used by TG as a free sticker included with the release of their first album ‘The Second Annual Report in 1977. As can be seen in the images below the TG flash symbol has gone through multiple adaptions, modifications, variations of colour and backgrounds. The most recent revision of the TG symbol (last updated by Peter Christopherson in 2010) incorporates the Buddhist ‘endless knot’ motif into the design.

The flash symbol, in its various forms, is actually a universally accepted symbol for ‘danger electricity’ and as such TG couldn’t register or copyright their version of the symbol. In fact (as it later transpired and unbeknown to TG at the time) David Bowie had used the same symbol inside a circle and of near identical shape and proportions to the TG flash for his Ziggy Stardust tour of 1973, although in the 1980s Bowie changed his flash logo to be more ‘top heavy’.

David Bowie

British Union of Fascists (BUF)

The symbol of the modern Satanic Age. The four pointed star, a lightning bolt, the black widows red mark, the combination of sun and ice in runes! --Stanton LaVey

the couch

 

Impossibly Nazi

Just look at all the glitterati 

Simmers of celluloid sinners

Art survives the rewrite from the winners

History may woe unto the vanquished but while it’s written by the victor, the sculptures and stains stay;

Primordial, primal memory

Nostalgic dementia 

Delusion for a different illusion 

The grass is always greener

Until Demeter’s cold shoulder turns

Hades takes Persephone and unleashes harsh winter

Oh, Hiroshima:

Once for an instance as bright as the sun’s gleam

Searing shadowy etches

Its just a bunch of wretches

Cancerous pestilence—

—take the Middle East, give much thanks to 20th century Britain and France

Kill the middle-man

Centrism is a death sentence

Purity, a point of pride

If revealed to the public, the puritan’s personal life, surely they tend to die

So we “burned all the good things in the Eden eye”

Paper and Pennie’s collected compulsively

Erratically, incessantly; counterproductively

Peachy in the breeze

Pupils dilated, mind 6 feet under up in the sky

Vices to get by

Docile

Domestically disposable 

Neutrality is fatality

Demagoguery is faculty 

Claiming pedigree 

from a pale, frail emasculated eunuch

hanging from a tree

Semitic stupidity, Abrahamic authoritarianism

All which you proclaim noble only ordains enslavement

Falling to the water

Icarus flew too close to Apollo

like a hammer to the pavement 

of 8 billion people

Obliteration is an asteroid away

“Imminent annihilation sounds so dope”

“All good art has only one purpose— to show man his own true face, and its only prerogative must be the necessity to find out the truth at all cost.” —Zbigniew Karkowski, ‘The Method Is Science, The Aim Is Religion’

Golden statues

Bibles:

glorified blood libel; fable

Idols

so quickly deplorable

“Hopeless and disposable”

“I got my scratcher and I’m gonna win the lotto”

Giving in

In the end we’re already with the dodo 

 A set-in-stone belief is a rock in a hard place; an anchor, a staple. It drags one down if it becomes the sole lense through which one views things, then it’s a snare and a trap. There’s a reason apologetics are called apologetics. Beliefs in of themselves are held by everyone on some level, it’s the black and white fundamentalism where things get convoluted. 

The Infernal Church Special (an event from July 27, 2022)

 

Infernal Church Special Coverart

The Infernal Church Special was a 24 hour radio show hosted on The Infernal Church discord server (2022-2024), masterminded by Claudia berdella and Baphy Myers, aided by Xulf the satanic pipe smoking raccoon as well as one other guy who had a mental breakdown and left a long the way and with him the possibility of a Lee Banks (church of rational Satanism) interview. It was the conclusion to the Summer of Bugbee and in imitation of the original 24 hour Might Is Right Special, we were so cool we got an interview with Shane Bugbee for the finale! Three 16 year olds, 24 hours; interviews, music, madness and peanut butter & jelly to dumping heads in ice buckets and Jehovah's witness' children's cartoons, it's a blast to hear. 

https://archive.org/details/p1_20250326

Claudia Berdella and Baphy Myers interview Joseph Rose (from the special): https://archive.org/details/joseph-rose-hail-satan-podcast-interview

The Shane Bugbee Interview finale: https://dn721601.ca.archive.org/0/items/p1_20220804/infernal_church_vs_shanebugbee.mp3

by Claudia Berdella & Baphy Myers

Baphy Myers & Claudia Berdella interview Shane Bugbee about his life, art, involvement in satanism, and thoughts on what satanism has evolved into the present day. This live interview was one of two interviews featured in The Infernal Church Special and a conclusion to both the special and The Summer of Bugbee event held in The Infernal Church.

The Infernal Church Special: https://archive.org/details/the-infernal-church-special

Link to Infernal Church: https://discord.gg/4GuRrjktW9

Links Mentioned

https://www.churchofsatan.com/interview-mf-magazine/

http://www.subgenius.com/

https://archive.org/details/sufferandcelebrate_ebook

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=C_TtTEw9w4s

https://www.churchofeuthanasia.org/

https://youtu.be/-2-pITJQWeU

https://archive.org/details/satanicjoy_bugbee

https://archive.org/details/MightIsRightSpecial

https://open.spotify.com/show/0yENcPJT4y4JDtcRyNlbmT?si=89fe8a4ea53649fd

https://open.spotify.com/episode/1Dt9fFN9rqYlJWExw7ueMH?si=73b2dd9152864a73