Monday, August 18, 2025

 When speaking of the past there is often an emphasis on things done for “the glory”. Glory was a virtuous ideal, but despite all the tales one must ask, if it was really so glorious why the constant emphasis on it? Why aren’t we continually basking in its shadow? 

In hindsight, there does seem to be glory in that the grass is always greener. Glory is another abstract ideal rather than reality. But it gives people a motivating force to strive with. 


Sunday, August 10, 2025

Mundane Extremes mini manifesto


The idea of Mundane Extremes is simple: everything is typical and everyone is a dime a dozen, but in that, the nuances of individual existence make for the perceived extremes. To sort of showcase it, I point to media like the My Chemical Romance tour video diary/documentary Life On The Murder Scene. Creative genius aside, there’s nothing out of the ordinary to it, it shows a band and their triumphs and tragedies with all the expected tropes: death, addiction, trauma and drive. It’s not a new tale. The extreme part is the viewing of and hearing the personal insights. Seinfeld is kind of anthemic with this, while “out-there” in that it’s a fictional TV show with character plot armor, the essence is each storyline isn’t out of the realm of possibility— it’s a show about nothing, like real life at the end of the day. To take from Camus and add to that concept as no matter the perspective, life is basically meaningless but what makes it interesting is that it’s a bunch of apes trying to figure out how not to kill themselves. Some do kill themselves though, a typical statistic from catastrophic dreamers. 

The extremes, as said come out of the nuanced circumstances, no matter how dime a dozen it may be. As an extreme example, the Holocaust is held up as this monumental massacre, when it’s not. Genocide was not at all uncommon in the 20th century, nor was it the largest it’s merely the most popular. Armenian, Holodomor (and other Soviet statistics), Africa, Asia and America you name it, all had theirs. But again it makes sense that the Holocaust is the notable one in its unique method of industrialized death. However as with everything the real interesting parts are found in how individuals on every end of the debacle reacted and interacted with the European situation based on their own nuances. Rudolf Hess’ memoirs, Anne Frank’s diary and “the man who broke into Auschwitz” all are the really interesting parts. 

Mundane extremes as such is in some essence the ability to adapt to circumstances. It can be seen in movies like Clerks or Empire Records, the everyday oddities…

Saturday, August 9, 2025

Denial and the truth of the matter

 I’m only an antichrist insofar as I don’t buy into the jesus myth or give any real shit about Christianity. I’m as much an antisemite. 

“Countercultural fascism”

 In a sense, fascism is a subculture under the broad label of counterculture. It’s queer and as such hated by society. Once it was a predominant system of thought, but has since become a boogeyman. Albeit it’s a legitimate one. However, like communism to capitalism: fascism is the best friend liberalism has ever had, its fear has kept it in business all these years. 

Hydration

Animal
Vegetable
In the end
it’s with water
Without it
Death

Antichrists: Easy

 Antichrists are easy. The terminology to it really just means one who denies the divinity of Christ. Paul the apostle was the original antichrist. In the modern sense the antichrist is the subconscious disbelief in God. 

Actively being an antichrist is where the challenge comes: if it’s forced and insincere, the concept fails under the incompetence of the inauthentic exclamation. It has to be authentic, like poking a bear with a stick while wrapped in salami. Like eugenics, being an antichrist can’t run contrary to nature or you end up with more fuck ups. Unsuccessful and artificial antichrists are caught up in artificial, sterile and stagnant ideals of those they are trying to provoke a reaction from. Case study: the reason Marilyn Manson became so successful, aside being genuine, as the Antichrist Superstar is that he manipulated the archetypes and playing into the dogmatic dualism he was both opposing and being consistent in. 

Friday, August 8, 2025

m-6

 Making people into muses, while absolutely unavoidable is quite limited as latent disloyalty and over idealization the inevitability. As if people are the only muses. If mankind may only muse then misery will usually be the mental montage. Not everyone can sit still and nude while a portrait is painted, picture taken or whipped, so it’s only sensible that human muses are momentary to the scheme of life. 

While you might know perceivably every little detail of a person, you don’t. A muse is more of a medium than a motivator; an image to put your energy into and from, a self sustaining mania. Why say mania? Muses are an obsession. Addictions. 

A serpent is a more stable muse than a person. 

m-5

Satanically speaking, idealism can only go so far until reality sets in. In that, you only get the most out of a muse if there’s the balance of idealization with realistic interpretation. Whatever the fuck that may be interpreting. 
Idealization is gilded and it only gets misery from muses, and it is often twofold; you only employ (to) one side of their character. The side you want, that may not really exist. Muses are sculpted flesh and blood, just as anyone and you. 
Few living things are one-dimensional. 

Things that happened today

 In history today seems recurring, at least in the last century 

Disneyland opened on an august 8th

Nixon resigned

The Tate-LaBianca murders began and nearly a century of Celebritarian celluloid has been cast as a result. 

8-8-88

m-4

Muse, is it amusement?
Imagined magnificence 
made by Melpomene
Sadistically self-prescribed mutilating 
dressed as a suicide makeover
a-MUSE-ment
Abuse well meant
Abuse well spent
Intent without interpretation 

m-3

 People like a muse because they tend to embody natural characteristics one should supposedly have, but lacks the activation for them. A muse is like a phone charging on a computer— plug it in and its access/use is increased. 

Oh look you’re like a VCR/ stick something in to know just who you are

Most make misery, as people have an issue balancing idealism with the reality of the thing before them. 

“You spin me right round…”

m-2

Muse: medical mômai
Masturbatory misery
Intimate calamity 

Graves and shallow waves
Waterspouts and gunshots
Not all muses are meat

M.E. Film and TV list

Reality Bites
Clerks
Almost Famous
Secondhand Lions
Pulp Fiction
Chasing Amy
Empire Records
8-Mile
What’s Eating Gilbert Grape?
Ted (show)
The Office
It’s Always Sunny In Philadelphia 
Heil Honey I’m Home
Malcolm In The Middle
Benny & Joon
Ordinary World
American Psycho

Tbc

Thursday, August 7, 2025

m-1

Muses
mind-mending mentors
Mental obstructors
Financial fuckers
Siren-like surrender
sweet suffering 
Projected conceptions
People aren’t purified paper
Blackened bones still have stories to bellow

Sunday, August 3, 2025

Jackie-O Never Knows

 A short story by Claudia Berdella

Jackie would never know. The morgue was locked and her husband’s open-headed carcass was being prepared for the coffin. Late in the night one of the workers came out of his secret spot, it wasn’t his first ballgame but it would be the only chance with such a notable corpse. 

“I didn’t vote for you, but I can’t resist it. This is a once-in-a lifetime opportunity you see; for me not you of course” he thought as he pulled the sheet off the presidential cadaver. The mortician began to undress himself, and his eye caught the record player in the corner of the room. Conveniently it had Marilyn Monroe singing Happy Birthday Mr President on it already. He went over to put the needle to the record before walking back to the corpse. As he turned the body over to begin, a flap of skin on the skull fell back. 

The mortician, already aroused from the idea of what he was about to do smiled a sly slit. He knew what to do, no one had ever done so to the commander in chief before, at least in public record. Gently, he steadied the head and guided his erect member into the wound. What brain was still in there made for an almost instantaneous orgasmic reaction. Sperm leaked from the nose. 

“Fuck” he thought, “that was too quick.” But then, he realized the deceased man’s suit was in a bag in the next room over. Quickly going to it, he rummaged through the fabrics until laying his hands on a small capsule. “I knew it” his mind retorted while opening it. 

After snorting the capsule of cocaine, the necrophiliac mortician went back to work and to town. His trick was simple, do the job he was payed for while performing. After half an hour it was done. 

Jackie-O would never know. 

 When speaking of the past there is often an emphasis on things done for “the glory”. Glory was a virtuous ideal, but despite all the tales ...