*aside before this: though it’s ‘NN’ abbreviation ability the name it is not part of the Neurotic Nihilism series. It’s just notes in the midst of nothing. Stream of consciousness. Like Time Eats. Not a Neurotic Nihilism entry.
The clock I put on the wall reads its hands at about 7 minutes until 3pm. I’m at work, a slow day in contrast to last Thursday. Not much aside that and a podcast in my ear.
A customer walks in. He has me check his lottery ticket. Winning $3 he chose to purchase another three tickets, promising like many a day to reward me handsomely, should they ‘win big.’ I doubt such ever would happen— after all I only have about another 6 weeks here; and I have never seen a person win higher than $500. What I see is more spent in wishful attempts than in successful return. I have a theory that lottery winners, in the larger numbers, tend to be preplanned and much of the money spent on the lottery is more akin to a fundraiser which goes until the fever reaches a breaking point; as seen with the madness I experienced last week. Multiple shifts of almost endless faces buying their share in the slight possibility of having the government breathing down their neck for taxes till they die…
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It’s true what Patti Smith says in M-Train, that, “it’s not so easy writing about nothing.”
Being at work, writing about something is more fit for a night shift. During the day, less time is afforded. Before coming in I was reading a bit of Dita Von Teese’s book Your Beauty Mark; admittedly a bit absent-mindedly in the process thinking of it’s concepts; in association with an anonymous quote, commonly and falsely attributed to Nietzsche, about the difference in killing a moth and butterfly being viewed in differing moral lenses based on mere aesthetic appearance.
Moths being a major proponent in proving adaptable traits in evolution, history seems to offer a differing regard. Not too dissimilar in that the species are quite similar in origin and outlined appearance, the morality is blurry. Subjective. Moths are goth and butterflies are hippies.
Goth came from the punk movement largely, which was in many ways a direct counter to the hippie ideals. Both however in their heights were looked upon with distaste by the respective (and typically same) establishment(s) around.
Aesthetics backed by ideas they ignite via their pathos and ethos grabbing propaganda clash.
Vibrant, a butterfly seems lively in fields of flowers on a sunny day. A moth is of the night, hovering around flame and street lights; phantasmal, some genomes even have patterns likening to human skulls on their bodies… Goths sacked time and byproducts of the hippie movement murdered Sharon Tate in meth-addled manifestation.
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In my ear Bill Maher and Jimmy Kimmel argue whether or not movies become reality. All things considered, I agree with Bill more. Apocalyptic is fetishistic, but it’s rather realistic if the way we go is by our own hand. Or like the cosmos killing the dinosaurs. Self fulfilling prophecy is true but in gradual decline. Interesting ideation on an instance unlikely end personal witness to in spite of inevitability.
In a sense Bill’s whole club random podcast is mundane extremes, in a sense.
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Thinking, at first it seems ironic for those adhering to the Christian faith to get tattoos of even crosses on their persona. On consideration though, why would that be so queer? Going in terms of the idea of ‘slave morality’ the faith came from the widespread adoption of those typically in servitude. Throughout time the marking of bound constituents in some form or another has been enacted so signify that slave status. In the rejection of all other entities before and in service to the Abrahamic Lord, it’s a marker without a mark. Given Adam and Eve began as nude until they got knowledge of the fact and everything apparently went to shit because a piece of fruit got eaten, and in Revelation with the imbued Mark of the Beast by the evil other entity (who was historically a substitute for a disliked emperor, to further add differentiators which also lends a bit more to the idea building, it seems). In a sense it’s akin to the proletariat against bourgeoisie in communist history and theory… Prohibition being Levitical law however if I remember reading correctly, according to Christian doctrines such as Catholicism say such got superseded with the New Testament and Jesus doing away with the old covenant… the implication being said rule is Jewish in the Abrahamic family tree, not Christian.
Seemingly, it makes a bit of sense they would get the cross tattooed, among other non-religious iconography and images. And that it’s a 2,000 year old dogma, as well as an almost innate inclination for humans to veer towards bodily glamour of varying degrees such happens.
Not being Christian, or ever having been, I’m altogether unsure. Their theology is their own mess to make up as they please.
I like the two cross of Lorraine tattoos I have though. As a random aside with all that.
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nothing.
nothing.
or something, it’s nothing.
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I guess I’ll get coffee. Well, when these people leave. This location doesn’t have any flavored syrups so I substitute: a few shots of hazelnut creamer, coffee, then some French vanilla creamer and mixing till it looks like a milkshake. Boom. Good coffee.
Rarely, I have learned, is there ever a truly bad coffee. Only bad coffee makers.
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