Eliphas Levi uses the phrase “infallible reason” in regards to fellow travelers, cautioning them of the possibility of going mad as a result of the danger in toying with the operations of occult science. As if science, of the occult inclination or accepted variety are not madness in of themselves on some level. Delusion is key to the willing of and illusion, until it becomes an attainable reality, is it not?
He explains his position further a few paragraphs later. Expressing that, “human passions produce blindly the opposites of their desire, when they act without direction. Excessive love arouses antipathy; blind hate counteracts and scourges itself; vanity leads to the abasement and the most cruel humiliations…”
Like myself at the beginning of the last year, 2025, with the will being refracted towards and external entity; and basing it in some sense on the obsessive madness detailed in Lolita, sonically synthesized to the album Eat Me, Drink Me; all the while attempting to evade its dreary, closing confirmation for a self-fulfilling prophecy. Shane warned. D’Annunzio preached. But I have little regret. “My pain is not ashamed to repeat itself,” only the issues which coagulated it so. It’s less cruel humiliation as Levi described, the verbiage I would use that of what Quentin Tarantino delegated in a podcast interview conducted by Brett Easton Ellis; when recollecting his a certain period of his life wherein it was himself and a friend existing and feeding off of one another’s ‘pathetic-ness’.
Like Jesse Pinkman and Jane in Breaking Bad, or better shown with Jimmy McGill/ Saul Goodman and Kim Wexler in its sister series Better Call Saul; together it’s ecstatic, cute, invigorating— but really as both shows go to present, it’s really two anchors weighing one another down. “It’s better to push something when it’s slipping, than risk being dragged down.”
Surviving
What is thriving?
Constantly conniving.
Strange sentry,
Charged with breaking in and entering
“What’s in a name?”
Freeze frame, lock and wait-
Get high with excessive haste;
Hate the waste,
Issue is it’s own escape.
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